Monday, March 19, 2007

Kiri Nagalong Day 19

Sadly...i believe the relationship with Kiri cannot be salvaged. We've tried the tips and communication strategies suggested by friends. We've gone back in time to when the pattern/relationship was fresh...new..uncomplicated by mistakes...back when the repetitions were smoothly anticipated. Bitterness and resentment has set in, although there was a brief resurgence of infatuation during the second honeymoon earlier in the month. Now...i feel only a sad nostalgia for what might have been. I will let her sleep there on the stairwell for a bit longer....dreaming of only she knows what. The end of the month deadline is peeking around the corner. The earliest sense of defeat is beginning to gnaw. But I shall think about that another day...because...

I'm awfully proud of myself! Why? you might ask....would SHE be proud of herself. Well, I'm gonna tell you. This weekend (actually the past several weekends, whenever there have been a few extra hours...I've been spring cleaning. You know the drill, unearthing files and boxes and going through years worth of papers and craft project rejects and piles of ...general crap that builds up when you've lived in the same place for almost two decades. Anyway...this flurry of activity spurred the little Grandma Clara into going through her boxes of "stuff" that we packed up and brought back from Oklahoma a few years ago. Last night, she had her walker loaded down with things and meticulously went around the living room laying filet crochet doilies/antimacassars across the backs of the chairs and sofas in the living room. She was the queen of filet crochet in her day and has dozens of these lovely crochet'd pictures packed away. I've had some of her exquisite doiles framed atop velvet and suede backgrounds. So why am I proud...I'm proud because a year ago I would've gotten mad about her pushing her "style" into the general living areas of my home. (yes, even after 3-4 years..i still would've gotten upset..how ridiculous was that?) Several months ago, DH and I had a long long talk about this....and basically what a lot of my anger/stress/upset etc. from having Grandma Clara here was a sense of losing "my" home...being pushed out of "my" space...even though it was my/our choice/decision....i guess i wasn't truly prepared for the reality of bringing another adult into our home..or..the repercussions of inviting them to make it their own. Yesterday...it was just another grandma clara thing...something to be remarked upon...but there wasn't an emotional response.....except maybe amusement....mostly with myself. That's what I'm proud of today. Besides....isn't this cool? The woman was an artist with a tiny hook and some thread!



In other knitting news....Bets from the elann.com chat center wants to do a Wren-A-Long...with THIS. pattern! Hey, I'm all about the knitalongs, and it seemed like something eminently wearable...but was there anything in the stash that could work?
A visit to the newly re-organized knitting room ensued....



I found enough Berroco Softwist (41% wool/59% rayon) in an interesting blue/green (called Blue Gabardine) purchased ...oh..maybe 5 or 6 years ago...for ...i don't remember...but I started knitting up a sleeve...er...I mean swatch....and voila'.....



We have a wren wing!

A decision will be made on Kiri's fate over the next several days....your comments, nagging, supportive....etc....as long as they relate to Kiri...(even remotely) will go into the drawing. (Hey, there sure seems to be an awful lot of name drawing going on these days! How fun is THAT!)
Shoot...before you know it someone in that elann webring that Joan's cooking up will start up a sock or scarf exchange or sumpin! Have a great knitterly day everyone!

10 comments:

Grace Yaskovic said...

Please PLease please don't put Kiri to sleep until I can have a crack at her, I know it will cost a couple pennies to ship her to me but I would love to be her life line. Let me know what you think---I plan to WrenAlong for my niece, I am thinking the Brilliant that goes on sale next Monday

Joan said...

One of Deepak Chopra's Seven Spiritual Laws of Success discusses how things that are not meant to be are the things we fight with, forcing them to be as we want, when it is not their destiny to be so. Things that are meant to be will come about easily. If you had tossed that Kiri weeks ago when it first started resisting your efforts to to become that shawl, you'd have spared yourself all the angst and guilt and dissatisfaction that you've been blogging about. And you'd have completed a totally different shawl or some other happy project.
Now, does yarn have destiny? Nah. It's all you, girl.

That webring is cooked & is here: http://elannites.blogspot.com/

Having a Knit Fitt said...

Good for you for trying. I vote for sending the Kiri to Grace.
Cate

jayne said...

Send Kiri to Grace, and then have Grace send her to me. You won't recognize her. :)

But remind me of what kind of yarn we're talking.

I like your attitude, and that is some amaaaazing crochet.

SK said...

Yes, send it to Grace. Let's has a touch of "Queen of shawl" spirit in it.

benne said...

I vote with sending Kiri to Grace for knitting CPR and Jayne for color CPR. She's just dragging your knitting spirits down at this point. Love the yarn you've picked for Wren. I need to get some of your cleaning mojo, can you send that to me???

Trish - My Merino Mantra said...

I agree with Joan. Stop wrestling with Kiri - it wasn't meant to be. I feel for you about losing your space. When DH lost his job, suddenly he was in my sewing room, office, sitting room, kitchen - EVERYWHERE, and doing things quite differently than I had ever done. I'm still not used to it, and I feel displaced. I have gotten better, although I draw the line at my sewing room and kitchen.

Dear Husband said...

Great Job DW! There are rooms in our house i didn't even know we had! Your loving DH :-)

Svetlana said...

Lisa, this is so funny that your DH comments on your blog. Mine reads my blog too, but never comments. Once he wanted, when I said he didn't like his job as my photographer.
As for Esprit, I loved working with it. I streched it not all the way, but little bit when knitting. I love my new one skein wonder so much that I want to use that yarn again. I brought some with me to work today and will swatch it in different stitch patterns to see how it will look in lace or cables.
After your battle with Kiri I feel I need to make one to see what it was all about. Where do I get the pattern?

dear Husband said...

Correction my DW! $460 on yarn. I found another $60 charge. :-) Is it time for an intervention? Your DH